With the Help of Orange Juice
We sit at that table, the one we always meet at. No words are spoken. Silence, because there’s nothing left to say.
He: For the past few months, a lot things has change. We’ve been sticky together only because of our past. It’s time we let go, because there’s no feelings behind our relationship.
I reach for his hand, I hold it tightly.
Me: Don’t go, it’s just stupid little fights. Lets stay strong. Don’t leave me don’t give everything we have away.
He loses up his grip. I look away because I don’t want him to see my tears fall down. We’ve been together long enough for him to know I’m crying. He grips my chin & turns it toward his direction. We look at each other, eye to eye. He wipes my tears with his warm, soft hand.
He: I don’t want to see you cry. & I’m never going to forget my first love. I’m never going to forget you, & all the sweet, unexplainable times we had together. It’s just that I don’t get that feeling, when I’m with you, like I used to. Please understand.
I clear my throat & stand up in front of him. I start to speak in my clearest, strongest voice
Me: If you think those reason are worth giving what we have away. Worth letting me go.
My voice starts to crack, tears start to fall down my face
Me: then say it, say it’s over.
I look away,
He: I’m sorry, you may never understand why I am doing this; but it’s over.
He turns around, I grab his hand then I let it go slowly. While leaving in his right hand, the promise ring he gave to me 4 months ago.
Me: you can have it,
He: no, I can’t,
Me: I don’t want to keep this lie
He: what are you talking about?
Me: the ring, the lie, you promise me. & now you’re breaking it
He: I said that, when I was still in love with you
Me: you’re not in love with me anyone?
He: no.
I take a deep breath then walks away from the table. He walks away slowly with his hands in his pockets, and with tears now running down his face. I turn away and start walking in the other direction, telling myself, don’t look back, don’t look back. Even though, I’m dying too.
Our story begins like this. So innocent, so right .
8 months earlier: When We Meet
I was in Walmart, trying to reach for the orange juice. I’m only 5’2, so I was too short. Suddenly, out of the blue; this tall, handsome guy comes along.
He: Oh, you look like you need help shorty.
He laughs richly, with one hand covering his mouth.
Me: Umm, sure, that would be great; thanks
He: Oh, no problem
Me: Am I’m that short?
He: No, I was just teasing you
Me: Oh, okay
He: Well, I know we just met, but may I receive those seven numbers that would connect you & me through a little metal device? I hope you have one
I couldn’t help but laugh. Suddenly my laugh turned into something ugly.
Me: Oh, I’m sorry
He: No, it’s fine, it was cute
Me blushings.
Me: Well, yes you may receive my seven numbers that would connect you and me through a little metal device.
We both walk away, slowly. Looking back each other couple times, just trying to remember how we both look like. So we can picture each other before falling asleep.
1 Month later: One Monthversary
He calls
Him: hey, meet me at the park in ten minutes, I want to see you babe.
Me: okay,
When I get to the park, he’s sitting at a table. I try to be sneaky & attempt to surprise him. But when he hears my footsteps, I quickly rises, walks towards me with a big smile. We hold each other close, tight, without any words spoken yet.
He: babe, I miss and love you. Happy Monthversary!
Me: aww, I miss you, & I love you very much babe. & Happy Montversary.
We walk back home together. Our hands joining as one, with our fingers crossing one another. When we get to my house, we watch a movie. Laying down on my bed, me in his arms. What can be better than this?
2 months later: Starting to Open up.
He: babe?
Me: yes, babe?
He: how many kids do you want?
Me: like three, haha. What about you?
He: same here. I want a boy first, then two girls.
Me: omg, me too!
He: babe?
Me: yes?
He: I love you,
Me: I love you too
He: no, I mean. Think about it first, are you really in love with me?
Me: well, let me see.
Silence ………………..
He: babe?
Me: well, yeah I am. Are you?
He: of course.
Me: can I ask why?
He: you’re different, in a good way. You’re my dream girl. That girl that you always imagine, hope, wish to be with someday. You know the one, yup. That’s you babe!
Me : awww, I’m speechless
Kiss , kiss , kiss , kiss
3 months later: When We Say It’s Forever
He takes me out to an outdoors restaunt, we’re all alone. He steps out of his seat, and now appears in front of me.
Me: babe, what are you doing?
He: shhhh, let me talk okay?
Me: okay.
He: pulls out a little black ring box, I gasp heavenly. He reaches for my right hands.
He: babe, I know it’s only been three months, and I’m so young. But I need to tell you. One day, I promise you I’ll proposed to you officially. But for now, this is a promise ring for you coming from me. I promise you, I’ll never leave you, I promise you I’ll always be there for you. I promise, I’ll be your forever, if you allow me to babe. So, yes?
Me: yes, of course!
Kiss , kiss , kiss , kiss
He sleeps over my house that night, me in his arms. Falling asleep to his heart beat.
4 months later: First Fight Ever
He calls me in the morning
Me: hello?
He: g’morning sunshine, happy 4 months!
Me: thanks, happy 4 months!
He: Let’s go to Frisco today, come back tomorrow night. Yeah?
Me: oh, I can’t. Family dinner tonight. Sorry babe,
He: tomorrow then?
Me: I can’t, family party tomorrow in Sac. Sorry again.
He: well can you meet me at the park in ten minutes, you know where.
Me: sure
My mom tells me at the last minute, grandma is in the hospital. We rush to the hospital, I forget my phone in the car. So he couldn’t get a hold of me. I finally get to the car, I look at my phone. 17 miss calls. 5 voice mails
Voice mail#1: where are you at, call me back babe.
Voicemail#2: I really hope you’re not blowing me off. Specially on our 4 monthversary.
Voicemail#3: call me back, please. What did I do wrong?
Voicemail#4: answer my calls babe, call me back, text me back. Anything.
Voicemail#5 : I’ve been waiting too long, I can’t believe you’re going to do this to me on our 4 monthserary . First our Frisco trip, now this. Wow, don’t bother calling back!
I tell my mom to drop me off at his house. When we get there, I knock on the door, and he opens.
Me: babe, I’m sorry about today, my grandma was in the hospital. Then I left my phone in the car, so I didn’t get to tell you. Sorry,
He: silence,
He walks away, I pull his hand
Me: babe, believe me. I’m not lying, I’m so sorry. Please, I love you babe.
He: silence,
Me: remember this promise ring? You promised to me,
He looks at me, and smile.
He: I love you too babe.
Kiss , kiss , kiss , kiss ,kiss
We stay up all night, playing games and taking photos all night.
5 months later: We Know Everything About Each Other
On the phone with him
Me: babe?
He: yeah?
Me: you’re playing zombies huh?
He: duhh, and you’re on your laptop right?
Me: duhh
Going to get ice cream
He: I got you strawberry short cake
Me: oh, thanks. My favorite.
We talk so much. We know everything about each other. Call each other at the same time every morning and night. Our texts were written the same. Everything was just so predictable
6 months later: The Distance is Now Not Just the Miles, But Heart
Me: do you still love me?
He: yeah.
Me: why?
He: I’m with you right?
Me: yeah ……..
He: why are you so sad?
Me: no reason.
He: okay, whatever
We seat across from each other like strangers that night. Him watching TV and what not, me on the laptop. I fall asleep without telling him, we fall asleep on the same bed, but our backs are turn against each other. We don’t tell each other we love each other as much anymore. I don’t wear his promise ring everyday now. Our phone calls end at 10 something, not at 4 or 5 something in the morning. He doesn’t pick up my calls just like I do to his. We text each other slower, our kisses are just kisses now. Our hugs are just pat on the backs now. We lost interest, that’s basically it.
7 months later: the end of the road
Now, we get into fights like every day .I expect so much from him know, and thinks he should know what to do and say because of how long we’ve been dating . He gets mad at everything I do. He doesn’t look at me the way he does anymore. He doesn’t hold me at night anymore. All we do together is, well nothing really. We may stay in the same room together. We may sleep on the same bed. We may ride in the same car. We may do a lot things together like that. But the feeling arn’t there.
I don’t wear his ring at all anymore.
Me: babe?
He: silence ….
Me: heyyy!
He: oh, yeah?
Me: what are we going to do with our lives?
He: I don’t know?
Me: tell me?
He: I don’t know, stop asking me questions.
Me: okay,
Two Weeks later, We Break Up .
After wards: The Out Come
After the break up, I move to Sac. for my senior year to start off new, new school & friends. I met a lot of nice, good looking guys, but none of them were as good for me as much as he was. I come back for the summer to visit my dad. I run to Walmart to pick up some groceries. I can finally reach the orange juice, but while lowering down my hand. I burst into tears, somehow out of the blues. This tall, handsome man comes along.
He: are you okay?
Me: yeah, I’m fine
I take a better look, it’s him.
7 years later: Happily Ever After
We live in a house, filled with our three beautiful children <3
-loveheidi
